Mid-Year Review: 20 Things I Want to Do in 2020

Photo I took last night in our yard, using
skills I learned in my photography class

1. "20 for 20" (20 minutes of exercise for 20 days each month)

On track: I'm averaging 20.6 days per month of at least 20 minutes of exercise.

2. Finish needlepoint project

No progress: I have a cross stitch project I bought in England in 1998. I've done everything except some outlining and detail work. I haven't worked on it yet this year, but I pulled it out of the closet and I've committed to doing something this week while I'm on staycation.

I Am Part of the Problem...

...and I want to be part of the solution. 

I recognize that striving to be non-racist is not enough. I need to strive to be anti-racist.

I recognize that I benefit from white privilege, and I need to leverage that privilege to support those that are disadvantaged by it.

I recognize that I have unintentionally caused microaggressions, and that my good intentions aren't relevant. Only the experience and feelings of the other person are relevant.

I recognize that I need to bear witness to the experience of those who are discriminated against and advocate for that experience to be changed.

• George Floyd, I see you
• Breonna Taylor, I see you
• Ahmaud Arbery, I see you
• My friend who was pointedly ignored at the deli counter, I see you
• My friend whose colleagues said (through a bizarre workplace award) that your black life didn't matter, I see you
• My friend who approached his childhood crush at a dance and saw her snatched away by her father while he warned your mother to keep you away from his daughter, I see you
• My friend who grew up knowing and trusting police officers and was threatened by one with being arm barred against your car at a football game just for being friendly, I see you
• My friend who discovered a white man asserting his privilege over your home's front stoop on a near daily basis, I see you 
• I recognize this list is just a drop in the bucket. Many of these friends have been sharing stories of systemic racism for years. I'm deeply sorry that I haven't been an active witness to your pain and advocate for change.

I recognize that I need to become more educated.

• yesterday I read So You Want to Talk About Race (this link goes to an independent book store, Scrawl Books, not to Amazon, which is often my thoughtless default)
• today I will watch Dr. Robin Di Angelo discuss White Fragility
• I commit to consistently and actively learning more about being part of the solution

I recognize that local elections are especially critical. It's not enough for me to educate myself and vote. I can help others learn about the issues and get to the polls (or absentee ballots). I can voice my opinions to my elected officials. 

I recognize that I can donate money to organizations that are fighting racism.

I recognize that I need to become comfortable with being uncomfortable.

I am part of the problem. I pledge to be part of the solution.